Tag Archives: Miscarriages

It’s Still Hard | A grief poem

Today, January 14th, marks the due date of the second baby my husband and I lost to miscarriage, now four and half years ago. Words fail to describe the existence of pain that still resides in my heart as a result from enduring such losses.

In remembrance of what today should have been, I’m publishing an old excerpt from my journal. Continue reading

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Roen’s Story

I’m sitting on the living room couch typing up the story of my second born, Roen Star. My husband sits to my left, whittling a piece of wood, as our fourteen month old naps in the bedroom.

Fourteen months. That number looks familiar. Oh yes, it’s written in the pages that sit on my lap, right in the middle of the memories. Memories of the coming and going of one small, but not insignificant life. Continue reading

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Dancing in Heaven

Not long after the loss of my first child, Alanna, I had a vision of her dancing in heaven. She was twirling and singing in a field of lavender. Happy. Beautiful. Free from the harms of this world.

There was a Bible verse that came to my mind along with this vision: “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.” (Psalm 91:1) This verse proved to be a steadfast comfort for me during those initial days of grief.  Continue reading

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Poetry Samples

{TOGETHER AND ALONE} // June 2014

They’re getting together,
planning special meals,
playing fun games,
Thinking I should be laughing too.
“Rejoice with those who rejoice,” they say. Continue reading

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Alanna’s Story

In recent years, the month of March would arrive un-welcomed by me. I hated to see it come, and was relieved as it neared its end. All because of what today, March 20th, is for me. You see, today I celebrate the life, while remembering the loss, of my firstborn child, Alanna Bea. I found out I was carrying her on January 2, 2011. I lost her through a late miscarriage on March 20, 2011. She weighed as much as six pennies and was the length of my ring finger.  Continue reading

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